Your memory has suddenly become clouded. You’re shrouded in forgetfulness. You’ll be driving down the road and not know where you are or remember where you’re going. As you walk, you may find yourself involved in “little accidents” because you’re in a haze.
You fear that you are going crazy.
You find there’s a videotape that constantly plays in an endless loop in your mind, running through what happened.
You find your belief system is shaken and you try to sort out what this means to your faith.
Placing impossible deadlines on yourself, you go back to work, but find that your mind wanders and it’s difficult to function efficiently or, some days, at all. Others wonder when you’ll be over “it,” not understanding that you’ll never be the same person you were before your child died—and the passage of time will not make you so.
You find yourself reading the same paragraph over and over again trying to understand what someone else has written.